Poor puppy!

Another day has come and gone and I am here still. That is a good thing. I did not sleep good last night. I was so worried about the poor cold pit bull that has claimed our back yard I wish that he would go back home, so I wouldn’t worry about him so much. I know he has to have a home because he is well fed and seems taken care of. Plus he keeps trying to get into our house. He gets along great with Dakota but I am not gonna risk the kids around a stray I don’t know that well. I don’t wanna call animal control because they will just put him to sleep. Poor puppy!

Saturdays

I am so ready for this weight loss competition.  I am ready to just live healthy and not worry so much about actual weight loss.  I am fasting today, hope that it brings me into a closer relationship with my God.  I am praying for the heatlh of my family and that we all find the joy in life that is already there for us to have.
I wonder what the Daily Devo is in my womens study bible today?.....

The one I'm doing today is Matthew 26:36-46.  It's about Trust and Confidence.  Excited!

Exercise has really become an obsession of mine.  I find it so relaxing and freeing.  That point when you begin to sweat and you feel that tingling cool, ah, I love that.  I need it.  It's an addiction.  I have to have more than one fix of exercise at least every day!  I love to go to the gym.  The elliptical is like my bestest friend ever.  I just love it.  There is no comparrison or replacment for it.  I guess if you are gonna be addicted to anything this is the thing to be addicted to! I have started doing 30 minutes on treadmill every morning prior to breakfast, thanks to the suggestion of my mother-in-law.  Thanks mom!  It starts my day off great.  It's like a morning pick me up!  Love it!

I have all my homeschooling supplies, they make me real excited and nervous all at once.  It is such a responsibility to take over my children's education.  But at the same time it is really the best for my kids.  They will get one on one attention.  They will be able to learn at their own pace.  Whether that be faster or slower than public school curriculum. They are going to be doing Bible, Numbers, Writing, Reading, Skill, Social Studies, History.  How many other 2 and 3 year olds do you know having all of that work put into them.  Thethrilling thing is, they are ready for all this.  They are so far ahead than other children their age in what they know.  It Is going to be hard, no doubt.  But it will also be exciting.

New laptop or notebook or both?

So I dropped a fortune at Best Buy today.  Paul got his new laptop.  Now that he is going to be preaching every Sunday, he needs to be able to do his sermons and other such things via a laptop.  I got me a cute little notebook to do my homework, blog, twitter, facebook, and other such things without having to use Paul's.  :)

I think it was necessary, however, it was way more money than I had planned on spending.... ugh!

Now to exercise or not to exercise.  I should, right?  But I am tired and burnt out from the spending spree...hmmmm....probably will end up going anyway.  I am an addict when it comes to exercise.  I have only had one "fix" today, gonna need another...probably.

Long time... No type?

It has been awhile since I have been on here.  I have been stressed to say the least.  I can't seem to shake it.  I am just overwhelmed daily.  Just with life's little tasks.  I know I need to rely more on my God and less on myself, but I can't seem to let go.  I need to let go!

Weight loss = Bed space

I realize that I need to loose an abundance of wiehgt, not jsut for my own health, but for bed space. I thought of this last night whne Maya, age three, joined me in bed. It wasn't too bad until Jasperlyn, age 1, joined as well. As I lay sandwhiched between my tow girls, not to mention my husband who was also in our full/queen size bed. I need to loose weight for mere wiggle room!

Alone

I am feeling super lonely. Don't know why exactly. It's not like I am hardly ever "alone". But my heart is lonely. I ache for something, but I do not know what. How confusing life can be!

Time will tell

So I sit here. I wonder what is to come of my life. Will I accomplish all that I hope to accomplish? Will I ever write my first book? Will I be a good wife and mother for the next 70 years? Only time will tell. I will not give up hope on myself I refuse.

I am still trying to change my lifestyle, not just looking to drop the excess 80+ pounds I carry on my body daily. But to improve health and life, not just for myself but for my whole family. I am trying to stay motivated enough to continue exercising and working hard on my body, but there are times like right now, where all i want to do is crawl into bed with my husband and forget about everything else.

I know not what will happen over time, but I will work continually to improve myself until I have nothing left to improve, which since I am totally imperfect will be never!