Long time... No type?

It has been awhile since I have been on here.  I have been stressed to say the least.  I can't seem to shake it.  I am just overwhelmed daily.  Just with life's little tasks.  I know I need to rely more on my God and less on myself, but I can't seem to let go.  I need to let go!

Weight loss = Bed space

I realize that I need to loose an abundance of wiehgt, not jsut for my own health, but for bed space. I thought of this last night whne Maya, age three, joined me in bed. It wasn't too bad until Jasperlyn, age 1, joined as well. As I lay sandwhiched between my tow girls, not to mention my husband who was also in our full/queen size bed. I need to loose weight for mere wiggle room!

Alone

I am feeling super lonely. Don't know why exactly. It's not like I am hardly ever "alone". But my heart is lonely. I ache for something, but I do not know what. How confusing life can be!

Time will tell

So I sit here. I wonder what is to come of my life. Will I accomplish all that I hope to accomplish? Will I ever write my first book? Will I be a good wife and mother for the next 70 years? Only time will tell. I will not give up hope on myself I refuse.

I am still trying to change my lifestyle, not just looking to drop the excess 80+ pounds I carry on my body daily. But to improve health and life, not just for myself but for my whole family. I am trying to stay motivated enough to continue exercising and working hard on my body, but there are times like right now, where all i want to do is crawl into bed with my husband and forget about everything else.

I know not what will happen over time, but I will work continually to improve myself until I have nothing left to improve, which since I am totally imperfect will be never!

Why is it so impossible to motivate myself to exercise. It's like pulling teeth. I will find whatever else I can to do other than exercising. I need to figure out how to kick my butt into gear. I have to change my lifestyle. Not to merely look better. But to feel better. To have more energy, strength and stamina.

Oh my

Sooooo close to finishing my associates degree... I can taste it! I just have to continue to apply myself until August 25th and it will be done.... Oh Lord give me the strength to pass these last two classes!

Razzle Dazzle

So yesterday I decided to take the kids to Pana Lake, my family has a trailor down there. When we got there we found out the air was broken. But, determined to have some good family time with my kids I decided to tough it out. We had a great time, until bedtime. They would not sleep. And we tried from 9 until 2:30 am when I gave up, packed them up and took them home. Then they slept till 9:30 am.

Mason was upset, because now he doesn't get to swim in the lake today, but I warned him last night of the consequences of not sleeping. So we may go back today, or not. I kinda feel bad because I know how excited he was, so it may have been hard to sleep, we'll see.


Today was the Decatur Celebration Parade, "Razzle Dazzle". It was the kids first parade. They had a wonderful time! It was super duper hot though! HOT! Fun though. Now to debate whether or not go swimming today....

AmerinIP

So a little background info...

My Amerin bill dated 12/18 - 1/21 stated that I owed 0.00 amount. I immediately called them and asked what was going on, they said nothing just pay 0.00. Then my bill dated 1/21 - 2/19 came and said the same thing, Bill 2/19 - 3/22 the same, bill 3/22 - 4/21 the same. Every time I called and asked what is going on, and they said no worries pay 0.00. Well since then I have been on my budget billing amount of 171.00.

This month my bill states that my budget billing amount is going to incrase to 398.00. ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?! So again I call. This time I am told well your Budget balance is behind 1,326.21. So I tell about the past and she doesn't believe me, puts me on hold and then looks at my account. Then she gets back on, shocked, doesn't know what to do, apologizes and says her supervisor will have to look at my account and call me back.

This was all at 9 am in the morning... It is now 1:28 pm and no word... No call back, nothing...

Kids are eating dinner now. Yum! Corn dogs and Doritos, their choice. I am watching "Mama Mia" I love Abba. What a wonderful idea to have their musin incorporated into a musical. This movie made me love M. Streep!

I am patiently waiting for my hubby to return home from work. I hate the days he works late!

Just testing out how my mobile blogging through texts will work

Time

As I sit here knowing that I should be doing something other than just sitting here I am reminded of this blog. So I type.

Today my day started around 7:30, meaning that I woke up before the kids, which is always wonderful. I love waking up naturally versus waking up to being poked and asked, "can you wipe my butt?" Much better to wake up naturally. My mother came over around 8:30 and the kids woke up at the same time. I always love having "Nana" over because she is a HUGE help to me and the kids. I went to the store and then to help my Grandma take her cat, Cha Cha, to the vet. Then we all went out to eat for lunch. Laughing and talking and doing what children do, I was and am always surprised by how many people always tell them how well behaved my children are. It always surprises me. I always simply say thank you and smile. I love my children to pieces and if that is having a good effect on them, then so be it. =)

July 13, 2009

I guess I couldn't think of much to write so coming up with a title to today's blog seemed an impossible task. I am tired and wore out today. I feel stressed, whether that be from 3 smal loud children, a grumpy husband, school money being slow, or my worship leader's impending departure.... Who knows. I just know, I feel stressed. Tense. Tired. Wore....


Love ya always,
LaRae

Sick

Oh how I hate being sick. And I am not talking about the run of the mill icky feeling or a headache. I mean puking my guts out, feeling death approaching kinda sick. That was me yesterday. I suppose it was something I ate, though I hate to think that because I ate at my all time favorite restuarant Ruby Tuesday's. But that is what came up. so although I love the place I do not feel the pull to return any time soon. Ugh! I hate being sick! Besides the fact that once again I have broken all the blood vessels in my face from vomitting. Why did I inherit this lovely thing from my mother. Anytime I vomit I suddenly become covered in purplish red freckels all over my face in neck. And I mean COVERED ALL OVER MY FACE AND NECK. It would be easier to paint my face purple than to cover it up. Fun!

Decade of Marriage

It was ten years ago on June 26, 1999 that I married my high school sweetheart. I was newly 18 he was nearly 20. Everyone told us how it was a horrid idea. They all said we would regret it and that it would be a big mistake. I admit that at times I may have agreed with those naysayers over the years. But I also know that there is so much that has happened in my life that I would never had made it through without Paul. My father's death, my mother's drug addiction. Those things i only barely made it through and it was with my best friend, my husband. Not all the years and days of this marriage have been all roses and kisses. We have had our struggles and our mistakes along the way. However we chose to push through and work it out. No matter what work it out. And I can honestly say that in the last 4 years, every year has gotten easier, more fun, and just plain better. I look forward to the next several decades I hope to share with my wonderful man.

BAKER and MILLER PC

Okay, so we recieved a bill from these lawyers stating that we owed Amerin IP for payments that had never been paid. This was 6 months ago. We did not know we owed them money because we never recieved a bill. This was from a residence we lived in 8 years ago. So we tell them to send us the records of this charge and if we are responsible we will of course pay it. We hear nothing for months.

Then 2 months ago we recieve a phone call with someone yelling at me about how we owe them money are we are refusing to pay our debt. I calmly tell her we are waiting for proof of the debt and proof that we were living there at the time of the charge. She then recites this 8 year old address to confirm address. I give her my correct address and then 2 weeks later we recieve the sheets. Though we weren't living there at the time, we have no way of knowing who would be responsible for the charges. I call the woman, that day, and tell her all of this. She says let me talk to my supervisor and get back to you.

2 weeks later we are delvered a summons to come to court for this debt. We go to court and are told that it would cost us much more to merely fight this than just pay the debt. I tell the lawyer that we had been trying to negotiate payment and had been awaiting a phone call, instead received a summons. Mind you this whole conversation the woman from Baker & Miller never even lifted her eyes from her binder. We agreed to plead guilty and work out a payment plan.

2 days later I am contacted by a man from Baker & Miller who starts out by yelling at me about needing a payment right now. I tell him to give me an address or website to make a payment and I will. He yells NO at me and says he needs one right now over the phone. I didn't have my credit card number and such memorized and was not in a position to give it to him at the time, on my cell phone. He curses at me. I tell him that I have not made a payment because we didn't know what to pay to whom and we had been waiting on them, all the above and such, he then calls me a LIAR and says that they've been trying to get money from me for years. Of course this is just not true. We did not even know this debt existed until a few months ago! I finally hung up on him because he wouldn't quit yelling and my kids were crying and asking "who is screaming?" That is how loud he was, he wan't even on speaker phone. After hanging up I went online searched out the lawfirm and made a payment on line. I wrote a letter via their e-mail stating the conversation and situation and asked to be contacted.

Now we recieve a notice that they are deducting Paul's pay from Wilbert. And that the judgement was in the amount of $516.07. But the balance due is $2,053.33.

This is what happens to people who can not afford lawyers. This is what happens when lawyers bully you and tell you you have to pay the money, even though you are not responsible, because you don't know your rights. I now know that if we had faught and won we wouldn't have had to pay anything! Now we have t pay 4 times the debt on a power bill that incurred on a home we had moved out of,while we were living in an apartment.

Why do people only look out for themselves. What does this do to a family that already is on public aid because with our three jobs we don't make enough to feed our family.

Mason's Ears

Well today my 3 yearold Mason took a bath and after said bah my husband, Paul, cleaned Mason's ears with a quetip. Afterwards Mason kept saying, "I can't be loud", and "I need it loud, please." After some time and discussion we figured out that he was saying he had water in his ears and it was slightly plugged.

So Paul cleaned his ears again. After the first ear, Mason went, "aaahh, aahhh" testing sounds. Paul did the other ear and Mason made the sounds again and then said, "It's loud again, thank you daddy!"

ha. Kids are so funny!

Manic Monday

Well here it is just another Manic Monday and again with the very little sleep last night! Ugh! Today I've decided I am going to get my house in order if it kills me! I need to be more of an A type personality and less C! LOL I must clean constantly or it gets to the point where I am just like I don't care anymore! Mess is mess.But if I get it organized and get the three year olds involved i think I can get and more importantly KEEP my house in order... Wish me luck!

Mess

I need to learn to be more efficient. I need to figure out how to keep the house clean with three tornados in constant motion named Mason, Maya, & Jasperlyn. I must find order or I shall loose my mind. I feel like it may be too late. But I have hope that I will figure out.

Sleep, I need sleep! Or exercise?

So It is Sunday morning. I am getting ready to go to Church for Worship team rehearsal. I will be the only female vocalist this morning, there are usually 3 or more of us. I am a little nervous. But not too much. It is easier to sing and blend with less people. It's more freeing to sing a different part. Especially when you don't feel like you might ess some one else up if you do something different. But still a little nervouse to be the only female voice heard.

I didn't sleep well last night. Couldn't fall asleep and then the girls had a rough night as well. Maya was in our bed for a little bit and then later Jasperlyn had a bad dream so we had to take care of that as well. So tired. It doesn't help that I feel exhausted these last few days. But not pregnant people, don't go there! Maybe it's time to do a body cleanse and up the exercise. Hopefully that will help! Anyways, Just wanted to stop by this AM and do my daily blog.

Until next time
LaRae

1st time

Well this is my first official blog on here. I guess I am excited to have a live diary for all to see. Whatever. It should be fun to share the stories of my kids with people, the good and the bad. I hope this helps me to open up more in my writing so I can get my novella on the mend. That's all for now. More to come!

LaRae